February 2012
20 posts
WINDOWS; POCKETS
I’m up early, just as I usually am. The waking dead. And everyone is still asleep under sheets or just hiding from Wednesday, more present as the sun peaks over buildings. My supervision was cancelled this morning, but I’m still alive and will likely be in the office long before I should be for no reason other than a small staffing with a case manager before my first appointment at...
DISPATCH; COMMON
I work another 12 hour day that peaks stressfully at both 10:00am and 3:30pm. Otherwise, I keep busy with paperwork and med referrals and making the binder for my proposed bereavement group. I hear even more rumors concerning the future of the company and, this time, they are more favorable if not too good to be true.
My brain is noncompliant most of the day, at least when I should be focusing...
NATURAL; UNFOUNDED
I’m having a shallow glass of rum and modifying the layout for my bereavement group I’m scheduled to be running at the conclusion of spring break. I thumb through a variety of activities for the kids until I’m bored with myself and The American Dollar just becomes background noise.
My Saturday is less of a wash than I expected it to be, but still disappointing nonetheless. ...
REGRESS; DAILY
After mulling over which electric shaver to get, I settle on this instead.
SHINE; MILEAGE
So I’m up and in my office around 7:00am finishing some notes from the day before and prepping for my 8:00am that eventually no shows. I get through my 10:00am client and work on some treatment plans. I still have an intake this afternoon, but in my head, I’m already at Chloe’s place for Valentine’s Day. Neither of us have money, but both of us are fine with staying in...
ACUTE; HELD
It was dark when I left for work this morning and it was dark when I left for home. The likelihood of a 50+ hour workweek is increasingly certain as I set my alarm for 5:00am again for tomorrow morning. Today felt like a terrible waste. Half of my clients cancelled and rescheduled for next week on what was supposed to be a full day that I was completely prepared for. And while appointments...
IT'S TIME TO GET SERIOUS ABOUT CHANGE.
COMPLETE; MARK
Yesterday was a strange day. A full day. And Debbie came upstairs to my office to ask if I minded taking two extra intakes next week. I happily agree, mostly because I know they get nervous about asking therapists to do even more work. I don’t want her to feel bad. So my next week is booked entirely.
One of the PAs downstairs accidentally double books me on my last appointment for...
TANGENT; SPITE
My day is a wadded up piece of paper. Three of my seven clients, including an intake, cancel last minute. I write a crisis note and watch my schedule shrivel up. The addition of a second lamp, this time at my desk, has provided me with an excuse to decrease the overall lighting in my office. And I think that’s at least one positive to come from this.
But my eyes are starting to shake...
LIGHT; SUBLIMITY
I’m on time to work, but feeling rushed. After missing the day before, I’m backed up on notes, paperwork, OTRs, HAP forms, and pretty much everything else my name has been attached to the past week. I’m able to finish up by 10:30am and begin working ahead for some clients. I send some emails, do a reassessment, find some resources, and print some things.
After multiple cups...
VISIT; RELIEF
It felt good to hear Chloe say she wanted to stay at Pinson Place. The Montezuma house was our dream at one time. I remember when Chloe told me about a month ago that Montezuma was a possibility. My initial reaction was fear. I grew to welcome the idea of that house, but my heart is at Pinson. It’s my home. It’s our home.
I can rest my mind on the house I belong to.
DUPLICATE; TREMENDOUS
I finish the paperwork for my loan consolidation and ICR. I hope that everything is correct. Most of my day has been directed towards this task that I’ve been delaying for some time now. I called into work early this morning. It took over a week, but one of my client’s finally succeeded in getting me sick.
So I do this and that and don’t make my bed and text Chloe. I wish...
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DEAFENING; CONTAGIOUS
After 1:00am, I’m still awake—listening to Far’s At Night We Live.
Earlier this evening I did my taxes and tried to find the motivation to read something. Anything, really. I suppose I didn’t have it in me. I sat down to write, too, but that wasn’t happening either. I ended up making a pot of coffee and watching msnbc.
Yesterday, I bought a new bottle of Sailor...
I HAVE A LOT OF ANXIETY CONCERNING THE PAPERWORK...
PLYMOUTH; LEAP
My day is decent and I’m able to finish the majority of my paperwork. After being done with my intake documentation for two clients, I feel at ease for the week. Of course, the next to days will still be full and I’ll be in the school tomorrow morning. I’m hoping that I’ll be less stressed to end my week. I’m not sure if I’m on call, though.
I’ll be...